Ha ha...

Once again...

My heart and my head took another battle. And once again my heart won. Which is really a happy thing. I wanna be controlled by my heart rather than by my ever so scheming brain. But sometimes I can't help but wonder if always looking for what I want rather than what I need is so smart? But, hey, yeah, I know... It's not really like that. It's more to it. And in the end it all make sense.
It just seems sometimes that this is gonna be an everlasting battle. Refusing to see the cool in the coolness. Always looking for the mystery to keep my heart weary.

Bye bye Cuba....

Some days I can't help but still believe, no matter how high the expectations are, that the Obama guy is actually gonna be one of the best things that has happened to world politics in a long time.

His decision to close down Guantanamo is, in my opinion, a very wise one. And if you don't wanna see the human rights parts of it (no one, no matter what, should be locked in without a trial), see it as the best marketing action for the US in a long time. I do understand that there are a lot of complicated things going on here but to close the base sends out a tremendous message to the world. You have no idea what a mess that place has put US reputation in if you haven't read international press the past couple of years.

And it seems like Obama also realizes that there is more than meets the eye to this. A canadian reporter quotes him saying; "We are not going to continue with a false choice between our safety and our ideals."

Simply splendid.

Some days it's so easy to relate...

Had a great talk with a good friend last night. About church, leadership, family... About relating, being a part of... About being transparent enough to stand in front of others. About honesty, taking nothing for granted...
Some days those conversations kind of just wears me down. I want so much more than I actually succeed with. I love so much more than I am able to show.

Got back to this song this morning. And even if there are some extreme parts I more than gladly leave out of my life in the lyrics, I can't help but, more than sometimes, think that Mr Williams do speak my mind.




Man, this guy can write lyrics...

So I sing a song
To reel 'em in
It's a song I've sung before and
a song I'm gonna sing again
I mean every word and I don't mean
a single one of them
Oh Lord make me pure but not yet

Tell a joke
Tell it twice
If no one else is laughing then why am I?
I split my sides both times and laugh until I cry
Oh Lord, please, make me pure but not yet

I don't have to try
I just dial it in
I've never found a job that for me
was worth bothering
I've got a ton of selfish genes
and lazy bones beneath this skin
Oh Lord, make me pure but not yet

Smoking kills
Sex sells
I've got one hand in my pocket but the
other one looks cool as hell
I know I'm going to die so my revenge
is living well
Oh Lord, make me pure but not yet

I stopped praying so I hope this song will do
I wrote it all for you
I'm not perfect, but you don't mind that,
do you?
I know you're there to pull me through
Aren't you?

So I look for love
I like the search
And I've been standing for election all across
the known universe
That every President gets the country she deserves
Oh Lord, make me pure but not yet

And I've been seeing
Somebody's wife
She said she'd leave him for me,
and I said that wasn't wise
You can't lie to a liar, because of all the lies
Oh Lord, please, make me pure but not yet

Hard to be a loner...

Hm... took a long walk yesterday and thought about life. Realized something. The very few things that the men that I've been attracted to have in common can be summon up in the song "Easy come, Easy go" by Rebecka Törnqvist.

Should probably see someone about that.

And humans we all are....

I've been outraged about pastors misleading their congregations many times in my life. But this story... It just makes me sad to be part of something where turning your whole life into a lie rather then telling the, sometimes filthy, truth seems like the best way out. How can we create a church where we are all aloud to be ourselves and ask for help with our struggles when we need it?

Watch through this, it'll leave you... moved. One way or another.

Weird...

... how you can want for someone to call just so you can tell them not to. Ha.