unnecessary

I found myself thinking that I have reasons to feel down and wondering why I am not. Isn't that a real waste of thinking energy?

Upside down

Had one of those mornings where you wake up and have no idea what day it is or where you are. Stayed in bed till I had figured out that it was Thursday and I was due to the office for no specific reasons.
Went into the bathroom and realized that I couldn't turn the light on. This is when my confusion starts to scare me a bit. The light switch was upside down. LIterally. Couldn't make it work. I had to turn the light on the opposite direction from what I've done every morning for three years... Took me a couple of more minutes before I realized that Arvid fixed something with it last night. The switch had fallen from it's socket and he put it back. Apparently - upside down. Enough to scare me in my morning sleepiness.
Anyways. At the office now. Still haven't found any specific reason why.
Great start.

Faith for real

A lot of times I struggle with the happy preppy Christianity introduced to me from TV-shows, music, magazines or church pulpets. In my home church, yeah, but maybe even more from our American friends (I guess Americans in general is just a happier preppier people... :). But this clip... There's just nothing plastic or fake about the hope in this very very tragic story.

A seventeen year old ran over his five year old sister on the driveway and killed here. This is what the family has to say:

Dreaming away

Survived the first day of new class. I soooo easily go into over gear when I have a new group of people in front of me. Like it would work better if I'm a real geek and they can all have the one thing together that they all feel uncomfortable watching me. Think I did ok this time though. Hope so.

Getting back to normal routines again makes me wanna start up the acting stuff again. We have this great little non formed group of people who does not desire to be on stage in front of people particularly but who really enjoys the impro part of acting. So we get together every now and then either for some impro tournaments that is more about making each other laugh or some really serious impro dramas. Those are the weirdest. Someone writes a story, tells everyone parts of it, like the obvious things known to everyone. Like "These two are married" or "Jack and Tom are brothers and run a company together" and then everyone gets a paper with all the info only their character knows. Like... "Jack hates the company and has a crush on Tom's wife". And then the drama starts and everyone tries to keep their little secrets and get what they want. Veeery destructive and chaotic and lots and lots of fun.

In my longing to start the whole thing up again after the summer I read through our last impro. Here is the little mind map I did for that one. So much fun. I miss acting sometimes. But actually. the little bits I do now totally fulfills my drama needs, I think. And when work gets a little boring, dreaming away to new little intrigues is so much fun.

Hiding...

This is how bad I am at my job. I start a new class in... sixteen minutes. Most of them are sitting outside my door, quiet and nervous. I'm hiding inside my office, trying to look really busy cause i just HATE the phase where everyone's depending on me, the teacher, to ease up the situation. So... this blog are my very busy last minute preparations. Soon I have to get in there, but then, it's in the classroom and at least I can be in front of people and don't have to mingle around and do small talk. Oh. I rule.

really really great weekend...

I love my friends. Can't be stated too often. Had a great weekend in my brothers cabin. Just great.

But back to reality. Tomorrow I start a new class, 20 new students invading my work. So not up for it. Catching a fever as well. Poor me. No. I'm fine. Just rambling. Worthless post really. Ha.